I had a very devastating dream last night. If that happens, all dreams and hopes would be crashed.

Somehow I knew we would be friends. We’d have our fights, our ups and downs, but when the big things came along, we could work anything out. We’d fight then laugh it off because we learned it wasn’t worth it. We knew that our friendship would make it through anything. It feels like we’ve been friends forever, and really, we have. But no matter what, you’ve always been there when I needed you the most, and I love you to death for that, all of you.

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hey, please take care of yourself alright. tomorrow's operation will turn out fine.

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But what bothers me the most is when someone walks into my life knowing they won't stay.

I got punched in the face and lost four teeth, haha.
I can't wait for the Cambodia trip. I can't wait for extra curriculum (don't ask me why haha) I can't wait for twentyten.

Jennifer's body today with hjr, (i hope you love me present thought it's small and late) Guess who i saw today? Celeste Loh Hui Shan :) Haha, yeah agree with you that we should catch up with the rest. Alright, today is a good day because i wore jeans and it rained. Oh guess what, i'm not thirty-nine in class anymore, but forty. wow, guess i have alot to catch up on.

On a brighter note, i don't have to go for the annual guides camp! ^^ Yay, i hope i will focus during our extra curriculum. Goodnight.

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(i know it's kinda late but...)




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Camp was alright. OH! i like that part when all the eight of us were in the room playing games, laughing the ass out of us. Broccoli, cabbage, carrot, cucumber,long bean, gang kong, tomato and spinach! Hahaha, i dislike the part when i had to hold whm really tightly during the Night Confidence walk.

Oh here's the time table for our extra curriculum :)

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough, to tear those walls down.

-One Tree Hill

thank you for the sweeet!:)

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tomorrow is it.
(yay) because tomorrow will be the day

my mum doesn't want me to go. apparently my sista passed the bug to me. haha good luck for your o levels :)
I feel bad for chasing off my dad's friend when i was primary three. Not literally chase, but chase. you see, my dad does not have much friends. more of 'bros'. and well, one of his friend(note a friend not bro) came to stay over @ our house. they drank and talked. i was just sitting there, listening to them talk. well, i talked too. but, there was this huge scar on his head (probably this was why he was bald) you know how a primary three pupil can be so irritating. curiosity killed the cat. i asked him not once, but million of times till he broke down. i feel bad.

oh boy am i glad to say that school is coming to an end.


before the holidays come to an end, i'd like to say sorry. and when it ends, we'd reaslise how much things had changed. we don't even realise that we are giving up.

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(this was meant for yesterday)



(today)
anyway, caught Dunas with hojieru yesterday. though i don't fully understand and appreciated it as much as other people did, i am glad that it was worth the cab fare and sweat (we had to run from cityhall all the way to esplanade in 4 mins). okay here's the funny part. you know in singapore, there's this group of aunties and uncles who loves to dance? and they always dance to the song of cha cha boom. they were outside esplanade, dancing their hearts awayy. we joined them. hahaha o.m.g. okayyyyyyy but it was really fun HAHAHAH

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At time, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for.

(eletheowl)

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i can't wait to watch the movie The Last song. The book was awesome. i've yet to watch my sister's keeper. i can't wait for school to be over.

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(ok i've got a few minutes before my brother starts nagging)

ok so my results are really sucky. i failed five. shouldn't have resort to last minute studying. stupid me. my dear B slash chuahuiling slash crazy ah ma wants to give up o levels. please don't because you've come so far and your freedom is nearing soon. please consider going to cambodia with me ^^ life isn't great. i took three days to read The Last Song, it was so touching that i could feel my tears threatening. i don't know when it is coming on theaters. my sister's keeper is out, i want to watch. o level is nearing, all the sec four pupils are mugging hard and long, i can't imagine myself doing that next year. i'll probably die. idiot, don't be so sad ok. and stop saying vulgarities :) lastly, happy birthday zhu yang. i am not lovesick.
i think im going over to my uncle's. miss meeee, not.

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indices, surds and logarithms are killing every cell that's left in my brain and squeezing dry all the brain juice. at least i have revisia to accompany my lonely nights. yay yay yay yay yay, tomorrow somehow marks the end of eoy because the only paper left is mother tongue listening compre. so i will work hard for this paper because i screwed up paper 1. yaaaa, so much for studying huh. stupid stupid stupid. at least there's something to look forward to tomorrow :) yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :')
a.math a.math a.math.
school in about 2 hours' time. i wonder if i can survive that 2 1/2 hour paper. kill me kill me kill me. i shall not wallow in self-pity, because that is too pathetic. hah, but i'll end up doing the same old thing. yeah i should shut up and study right? hahaha ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok, bye bye bye bye bye. wait, no. see you soon :)

can't wait can't wait can't wait.
5th october. because all i got was nothing and you didn't even realise it. i gave myself hope, hoping that you would reply something or ask me to fuck off, just anything. but i was damn bloody wrong. i feel like a stupid loser :( even the last chance was ruined, now tell me what should i do? :'( and no, this isn't any emo nemo love thing ok. i just feel like some fcuking loser shit and part of me wants to push everyone away.

true love has no happy ending because it is never ending

-illidius :)

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Hello Horny,



presenting you, the horniest horny and the bounciest fishball.



Finally had our picnic though lydia, kristy, minnxuan and hweemin were not there (we will have another one after exams ^^) FLY KITE FLY KITE OMG, yay i flew a kite today, yay. It was a very big orange sotong, not very big though but it's big. ok, so i am suppose to study for f&n exam and jr is suppose to study her pure geog but we flew a kite instead, how greatttttt. to make it up, we are going to stay up for the whole night which i highly doubt jr will ever make it.


everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be alright.

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what if found out that the person you love the most actually hates you? or what if you found out a secret that your best friend has been keeping? what if you found out that your best friend is dying? what if you tried to undo the undoables but accidentally did the undoables? so how are you suppose to undo the undoables when you did the undoables? what if you tried to make up but you just found out that no matter how you make up to the person, it will still be your fault and there's nothing that you can change that? how about losing almost everyone because of your own doings?

can't wait for the exams to be over.

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@2252
house chores,exams,reading,you,me,troubles,hweemin and MUD. what more can you expect from my life?
the fact that the maid has gone home and the new one isn't here yet isn't helping much. the fact that i can still read and manage to read finish my Handle With Care within 11 days isn't helping my examinations. the fact that i know i am going to fail science, combined humans,a.math and f&n makes everything worse. and the fact that i am so useless to see that you actually did not care but actually believed you did makes me want to take a penknife and slit my arms, feel the pain and laugh it off. you use pain to numb the other pain, isn't that what many people told you to do? that's a crude remark.
what comes around,goes around. you are effing right.

life isn't great now, it is not going to get any better even if it's three hundred and sixty-five days later.
i have so much to tell you,swg

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you don't want to know me



since 20th MAY 2008